*le sigh*

[paraka]

You ever do that thing, where you spend all day writing a post in your head that you just *have* to post? And then when you finally sit down to write it, you have no idea what to say, or have lost interest or moved on or whatever?

Well I totally planned on making a post about QaF, ship wars, and other stupid things, but well, consider me bored with it now. All I'll say is that the QaF fandom is very different today than it was a couple of years ago when I was still in it. And yet, really? people are the same everywhere.

Also, I really hope I get a different desk when I start at my new position. I'm currently sitting in the admin area, and it's kind of loud and busy, but beyond that, one of the women who works there is... nice, but chatty, and sometimes kind of ignorant. I find the more time I spend around her, the less I respect her.

Sometimes I'm afraid of that happening to me. Where people think, "Hey, that Paraka's pretty cool" and then they friend me and read what I have to say and then think" Uhg, maybe not" (I'm ok with the maybe not, because I *know* I'm not cool, but the uhg part gets me). I'm insecure like that.

Bleh. Also, more people should post to Insane Journal. It's wrong that there's only been one entry added to my flist over there since *yesterday*. I have the insane urge to start creating comms over there, except, I'm a crappy crappy mod.

Comments

[pbanda.livejournal.com]

I do that post composing thing all the time OMG. I have it all perfectly written out in my head and then can't muster up the will to post it when I get online. Uhg. It's annoying! But you're not. I'd neve "uhg" you. ;)

Good luck getting a new desk! Sitting in a busy area can be tough even without any particularly annoying people. *hugs*

[laii.livejournal.com]

I think you're cool! <3 and not once have i thought "urgh"

good luck with the job stuffs!

[paraka]

I do that post composing thing all the time OMG
I once was thinking about LJ and realized that I just hadn't been getting very many comments (not that I normally get 50 per post, but normally I'll get at least one), then I realized that the reason I wasn't getting comments was because I hadn't *actually* posted anything in a month, I just kept *thinking* about posting :P

But you're not. I'd neve "uhg" you. ;)
Yay! I'm glad, I actually do worry about such things...

without any particularly annoying people
She's not *always* annoying, and I'd probably like her if it weren't for the occasional conversation. Like the one we had the other day, where she was saying that immegrants are ruining the country, and all the crime is their fault, and why can't she take the bus that has *people* on it.
Gah! It was all I could do not to yell at her! All I did was sit there going "If we didn't have immigrants, we'd have run out of a population a generation ago" and "I don't think I've ever heard any evidence that phishing was a "coloured" crime" and "I love diversity, it makes our country a better place"
God, it pisses me off just to think about it.

[paraka]

I think you're cool
Give it time, then you'll learn :P

good luck with the job stuffs!
Thanks!