So.

[paraka]

I just came back from the vets. Without Tigger. Ever since we found out that she had a tumour I knew this day was going to come but I really didn't expect it to be this soon. I think I expected her to get sick before but she wasn't, she was still herself. The thing is, the tumour was on her jaw and it just got so big that it pushed her tongue out of her mouth and she was having trouble eating, and wasn't able to drink at all. When we saw that she was just face planting in the water because she couldn't drink normally we called the vet. The were actually booked solid all day, but stayed open late so they could take care of her. We fed her water with a syringe in the mean time. The Dr. we took her to was just amazing. I almost didn't stay with her after the Dr. told me some of the things that could happen once she was given the drugs but I'm really glad I did, because Tigger didn't even twitch. She sat on my lap and let me snuggle her, and I'm pretty sure she was dead before the injection was even finished. Her heart had stopped beating by the time the Dr. got her stethoscope in place.

Surprisingly, I think it's my mom who's taking this hardest (she hates cats but still managed to fall in love with Tigger). My little sister was really upset too. She's away at university but is coming home next weekend, she was hoping Tigger could hold out until then, but no such luck.

I'm ok, I'm sad and I'm really going to miss her but I'm ok. I may have possibly overestimated how OK I am. I really really miss her at the moment.

Comments

[equusentric.livejournal.com]

{{{{Snuzzles you madly}}}}

[paraka]

Thanks

[ubiquitous-girl.livejournal.com]

Awww. *hugglestight*

[paraka]

Thanks

[aurora]

:(( :(( :((

I'm really sorry.

[paraka]

Thanks. It was hard to see her go, but it was her time :(

[kronos999.livejournal.com]

Oh no. I'm so sorry. *Hugs.*

[paraka]

Thanks

[melibabe.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear of your loss. I know this has been a tough time - I definitely sympathize! And yes, I'm also glad I was there for the end. It was amazingly tough (I bawled), but I felt as if I were there for my baby one last time when she really needed me.

Warm thoughts and snugs to you and the family.

[paraka]

Oh I remember reading when your cat died. It's just so hard to deal with. Some of the time I'm ok, but then other times I forget she's gone and when I realize, that's when it hits me.

But yeah, I'm glad I was there for her in the end. She wouldn't really let me hold her most of the day but I just couldn't let her do this alone.

[seanchaidh.livejournal.com]

*hug* I know how you feel. *hug*

[munchkinofdoom.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I know you knew this day was coming, but that doesn't really make it any easier, does it. *hugs*

[maekala.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. *huggles*

[itsjustkristen.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. Losing a pet is very hard. *hugs*

[the-muppet.livejournal.com]

Aw hon, I am so, so sorry to read this - don't overestimate how okay you are as I'm sure it'll hit you when you least expect it.

*heffa hugs*

[teary-eyed2.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear about Tigger and it's ok to miss her for as long as you need until a new companion finds her/his way into your life *hugs*
[I still remember how I thought I was going to lose Chester to kidney failure/starvation and how lonely it would be given my situation.]

[keewick.livejournal.com]

I'm so very, very sorry.

[edgyauthor.livejournal.com]

So, so sorry. It's never easy saying goodbye to a pet, even when you're expecting it. It was so painful when my first dog was put to sleep, and my other dog has had many close calls over the years. *hugs*

[edenmalfoy.livejournal.com]

I just went through this with my Butterscotch, he had bone marrow cancer and had gotten so weak he could barely lift his head. We, too, were leary of staying while he died after they told us what could happen but I'm glad we stayed. He, too, went very peacefully and was gone within a matter of seconds. It's hard, I know exactly what you're going through.

::hugs::

[paradise-city.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry. Best of luck getting through it.

[terribilita.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[anoel.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry. Just give yourself time to grieve and let it all out, it takes awhile. She'll always be with you in spirit, I know my cat is *more hugs*