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Probably TMI, but *meh*
So, I'm fat. I've been fat all my life, I freely admit this. So, it drives me crazy when people assume that because you're fat, your biggest wish is to not be fat. Sure, if someone came out with a pill tomorrow that would safely have you lose weight without having to work for it, I'd probably take it, but my weight isn't something I stress over from day to day. I have no doubt that I could lose a ton of weight if I really wanted to, sure it's hard, but I'm super stubborn about the things I want.
The thing is though, I don't mind my weight. Not really. I'm comfortable in my body. Sure I can't run marathons or anything, but I don't want to in the first place, so it's all good. There have been a few times in my life, where I have been uncomfortable with my fitness level (not necessarily my weight), when I've let things go, and suddenly I find myself getting winded, or tired well before I think I should, and at those points in my life, I've gotten my act together and *fixed* it.
I'm at one of those points in my life now. Now that I'm working instead of going to school, and living in the country instead of in the city, I find myself sitting at a desk all day and driving everywhere, so I'm beginning to feel a little uncomfortable. To fix this, I've joined a gym with a friend of mine. We've been going about 3 times a week this past month.
The part that's driving me crazy, is everyone assumes I'm going because I'm finally going to lose all my extra weight. My parents and sister ask me *every* *day* how things are going at the gym, and I want to kill them. They're telling the *rest* of my family that I'm finally going to the gym, and it's frustrating, because I think the rest of the family is expecting me to have lost 20 pounds by the next time we meet. My mom always goes on and on about this diet or another, and about how she really wants to lose weight too; she'll get into a ton of different philosophies, and can seriously talk about it for *hours*. I run away whenever I can before she ca really get into it.
Except, that's totally not why I'm going to the gym. I won't be unhappy if I lose weight from the work outs, but losing weight requires a lifestyle change, and I'm not dieting, nor am I killing myself to burn off all those calories. I'm just going and building up some muscle so I won't feel uncomfortable with myself. It's already working wonders for me (my knee had been bothering and I had been limping a bit, and now it's totally gone). I got a health check yesterday and they said my heart rate is amazing (although, I don't imagine my 3 weeks at the gym did that, since my resting heart rate was like 20 beats/minute under that of a normal person).
I just... wish everyone would lay off me about it, because if they don't it's going to lead to disappointment all around.
Also, I really want to move out to my own place. Like now. I'm trying to save up for a house, but gah, I wish I could move today.
The thing is though, I don't mind my weight. Not really. I'm comfortable in my body. Sure I can't run marathons or anything, but I don't want to in the first place, so it's all good. There have been a few times in my life, where I have been uncomfortable with my fitness level (not necessarily my weight), when I've let things go, and suddenly I find myself getting winded, or tired well before I think I should, and at those points in my life, I've gotten my act together and *fixed* it.
I'm at one of those points in my life now. Now that I'm working instead of going to school, and living in the country instead of in the city, I find myself sitting at a desk all day and driving everywhere, so I'm beginning to feel a little uncomfortable. To fix this, I've joined a gym with a friend of mine. We've been going about 3 times a week this past month.
The part that's driving me crazy, is everyone assumes I'm going because I'm finally going to lose all my extra weight. My parents and sister ask me *every* *day* how things are going at the gym, and I want to kill them. They're telling the *rest* of my family that I'm finally going to the gym, and it's frustrating, because I think the rest of the family is expecting me to have lost 20 pounds by the next time we meet. My mom always goes on and on about this diet or another, and about how she really wants to lose weight too; she'll get into a ton of different philosophies, and can seriously talk about it for *hours*. I run away whenever I can before she ca really get into it.
Except, that's totally not why I'm going to the gym. I won't be unhappy if I lose weight from the work outs, but losing weight requires a lifestyle change, and I'm not dieting, nor am I killing myself to burn off all those calories. I'm just going and building up some muscle so I won't feel uncomfortable with myself. It's already working wonders for me (my knee had been bothering and I had been limping a bit, and now it's totally gone). I got a health check yesterday and they said my heart rate is amazing (although, I don't imagine my 3 weeks at the gym did that, since my resting heart rate was like 20 beats/minute under that of a normal person).
I just... wish everyone would lay off me about it, because if they don't it's going to lead to disappointment all around.
Also, I really want to move out to my own place. Like now. I'm trying to save up for a house, but gah, I wish I could move today.
Vividcon
Thanks for letting me ask. I'm assuming that it's fun from your experiences. I know the cons I've gone to in the past, I've enjoyed the fan panel aspect of it more than the meeting the celebrities part, so I thought I'd try and go to a a fan run con where I knew I'd be interested in the subject.
So, what are the panels like? Do you learn a lot about vidding while there? I really want to be able to take something back to my own vidding, since I've been in such a slump for so long :S
And I hate having to ask people about money stuff, but, how much do you end up paying for the hotel (are the prices listed on the site accurate? I ask, because the schedule linked on the navigation bar is to the 2006 schedule, and I'd hate to try and budget using out dated figures)? Do you have to pay for much once you're there (I realize that you have to buy food, and I'm sure there are things for sale, but are there aspects of the con you have to pay extra for? Like the party? Or any of the panels?)?
Umm, I think that's it for now, but please feel free to add anything that I might have forgot to ask...
And thanks so much!
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Well the prices are right, it should be about $108 or so per night but you can split it with your roommates. The tax may be a bit more. Everything is free but last year there was a $20 (maybe 10) price for a open bar. Food is often eaten at the Outback Steakhouse so you might want to plan for those meals and be sure to bring some money to buy any vidding DVDs you may want. There's not a lot of miscellaneous expenses unless you plan to do other stuff.
Really, if you love vids and would love to meet some vid lovers, it's the perfect con. I've had the time of my life on both occasions. And I would definitely recommend to try to submit a Premiere vid or at least Club Vivid while you're there. There's nothing like getting instantaneous feedback and being part of the show no matter how nervewracking it is. People are definitely really nice and welcoming for the most part, it's a great atmosphere. I just love it so much :)
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I'm hoping that actually going can help get me motivated again.
As for hotels and stuff, how many days do you stay? From what I can see they do stuff all day Friday and go pretty late on Sunday, do you show up on Thursday and leave on Monday?
Also, I see that registration starts tomorrow, how important is early sign ups? Do I have to make the decision now? Or will spots still be available if I wait a bit (I'm pretty sure I want to now, but since I'm going to be spending a whole lot of money today, I think I should wait a bit before talking about another big expense :P)
Also, it's taking place this year on my Mom's birthday, so that might require some sweet talking.
Ohh, this is so *exciting*. It totally makes me want to vid, but I can't :( This makes me sad. I keep thinking that I should use the rest of my day off today to do fannish things, but I won't be able to see anything.
Re: Vividcon
Sign up EARLY! Yes, I'd definitely recommend it because I wouldn't trust the waitlist this year although in past years, most people have been able to get in. If you sign up tomorrow then you have three weeks to get your payment in before you get moved to the waitlist. It's definitely worth whatever you have to do IMO.
Vid in your head! You can at least listen to music.
Re: Vividcon
How much of Thursday are you generally there for? Because I was thinking of trying to come in Thursday night (hopefully only leaving after work, I can't imagine that it would be a problem getting a direct flight to Chicago, or at least from Toronto to Chicago direct...)
I've started ripping more eps for the vid I'm thinking of, I can do that at least without staring at a computer for very long.
Re: Vividcon
On Thursday people usually start coming around 3 or so. Night is fine though.
Yay vid!