Hmmm, should I do 3 Day Novel this year? I don't think I have any plans for that weekend and last year I did get a good chunk written. I'm not very good with the actually-sitting-down-and-writing thing so the 10K I got out was probably the most I've ever written of fic. Granted I got 10K in and hadn't even introduced one of the main characters yet. When I was talking to diurnal_lee about 3 Day Novel a couple months ago, I joked that it could be an annual tradition for me to write bits of that fic every year for 3DN and maybe in a decade it'll actually be finished (it's kind of an epic story :S).

I totally could write that fic but I'm not really feeling it right now. I'm a little too in love with Kradam at the moment to write John/Cameron. Although, if I wanted to do a bit of both, I could write that Kradam/Terminator crossover idea I have.... Or I could write the one where love at first sight is a medical condition and the boys come down with it while on Idol... and don't notice.

I need to start thinking about this now because I'm going to need to have some kind of story line laid out before going into the weekend if I want to get anything out of it.

So, kronos999 has spent the past couple days wandering around thinking about a fic idea she wants to write. It was supposed to be a sex pollen fic but now it's this giant crossover fic of doom. I laugh at her, because this totally happens to me all the time. The reason I never post fic? Is because what started off as maybe 5K words morphed into something that's rounghtly 200K and has 3 sequels that I never finish writing.

We were talking about it and at one point she started complaining about angst, since it's what totally took over her story. And I realized that's totally true for me too. Of the 5 or so fics I have on the table, I realized the only one that has a happy ending is the dub-con one *headdesk*

Well, the only fic in a fandom that kronos999 and I didn't make up. Because my FP fics are all about highlighted nipples and shared dreams of furtune... if you know I were writing fic about the guys teaching me about the stock market *cough* *hides Google Doc*

So yes, this has been a completely random update from me. I will go back to my hiding and avoiding of journals while I freak out over the next month of overtime at work :S

I haven't really been on LJ since last Thursday. I spent all my free time this weekend angsting and cleaning up so haven't had a lot of time. Also, I've fallen behind on my shows so don't want to get spoiled. I owe people comments and hope to get to them soon.

In other news, what's with the Merlin fandom and incest fics? I don't really have any issues with incest in fics, hell, I've had two fandoms where incest pairings were my main pairing, however I've never really gotten why people feel the need to throw incest into a non-canon pairing for fics. It seems like this round of kinkme_merlin is just filled with incest prompts and I find this weird. And in some cases icky (mostly when I say I'm ok with incest I mean I'm ok with consensual incest between family members of the same generation that isn't porny while they're still really young. I find it a lot harder to take with you get different generations involved and/or the kids are really really young).

And, while we're on the subject of Merlin, ( last week's episode )

So, to follow through with my thoughts to try rec'ing more, I've been taking a look at what I bookmarked and watching for trends. This may not be interesting to anyone but me, but I thought it worth posting.

( August )


( September )

So, I'm currently in the middle of a Terminator rewatch. I haven't talked about it much here on my journal, but I'm doing 3 Day Novel and writing a Terminator fic for it (although now it's morphed into this giant multi fandom 'verse, god). So, to prepare for next weekend, I'm rewatching all of Terminator.

So far I've made it through all the movies, and am just finishing up S1 of SCC. While rewatching though, I noticed a horrible piece of Bad!Science, that I just can't get over.

When Derek was bleeding out on the table, Charlie says that they need some AB blood, the rarest blood type. Cameron volunteers that Sarah is type O, the universal donor, but Charlie insists that they need AB blood. John asks to be tested, and image that, he has type AB blood.

Now, if you know anything about genetics, you know that the reason *why* AB blood is so rare, is because your parents would have had to have had blood types, A, B or AB. O is recessive! If one of your parents had type O blood, you can't have type AB!!!

However, due to this horrible piece of science, kronos999 came up with this awesome fic idea that I'm going to make her write. *Make* her. *nods*

Just got back from Dairy Queen. My mom randomly decided we should go out for ice cream. And I can hear her making cupcakes. I feel like a giant 5 year old, but she'd making them so I can bring them into work. For my birthday. :P

I was saying to raxhel today that it doesn't really feel like my birthday, since normally June is so busy we don't have time for anything. Except I haven't really been busy this year. I guess I took that statement to heart, because suddenly my schedule is looking pretty full. Tomorrow for my actual birthday we're just going to do a quiet night at home. But on Friday I'm going out with lilithilien and we're going to go to a concert. Saturday I'm going to go furniture shopping with my mom (20 days 'til the house is *mine*). And Sunday is the ottawa_slashers monthly meet up but I'm going to have to leave early since we're having my family birthday party Sunday afternoon.

Yesterday I met up with seanchaidh and we went out for dinner, and then headed over to a Starbucks for a write in. Often when I go to write ins, I spend more time distracting people than anything else (yesterday wasn't really an exception) or I'll bring my computer and work on editing a podfic or possibly a vid. Yesterday though, I just brought a note book and pen, and actually *wrote*. I restarted a Terminator fic I'm working on. I've also fleshed out a lot more of the idea. I'm really happy with the little I have down, so hopefully I'll keep writing, and eventually have something I can post. Right now, the working title is "Sex Bot Fic" to give you an idea what it's about :P

And because I haven't done one in a while: Vid Rec.

Title: Red
Vidder: obsessive24
Song: Red by Elbow
Fandom/Pairing: Merlin - Arthur/Merlin
Why I Love It: This is just such a *pretty* vid. I love all the slow motion shots, and views of red, especially of Arthur's cape. This vid really showcases how pretty the source material is (and totally makes me want to vid in the fandom, even though I have no *time*).
It's also a perfect song for Arthur, his mentality and life. "You burn too bright, you live too fast" "You're a tragedy starting to happen" I mean, isn't that just Arthur?
I love how the vid starts off with Arthur and his father; like an explanation or build up as to *why* Arthur lives this way. To show all the pressure Arthur is under.
Then the vid moves onto Merlin and shows an almost envy within Arthur. And it shows how hard Arthur fights for those around him. But then we get to see how Merlin also fights for Arthur too. Even if sometimes it's in the background. It really bring home that message of them being two sides of the same coin, and I love the ending shot, of Merlin holding Arthur above the water. Such a powerful vid.

So, I haven't been watching vids as much as I used to, but today I felt like changing that. So I put my vids on to play while I'm surfing around. All of a sudden a QaF vid starts to play, and I recognize it as my own, but for the life of my I couldn't remember which one it was. Isn't that sad? The part that'd even worse, is, as I sat there looking at it, I thought, "Hey, I don't hate this!" Because I have this thing, where often, once I'm finished the vid, I can't make myself watch it afterwords, because all I see is the mistakes. I was a good, oh, minute into it, before I realized that it was a copy of the QaF vid I *started* making last year, but never finished. *headdesk* That's why I couldn't remember which of my *published* vids it was.
That said, I should really go back and finish it sometime, what I have done so far isn't bad. But first, I have to finish the SGA vid I'm working on. I should really work on it now, but I'm feeling kind of meh today and want to do nothing. So instead I am doing some half assed research for the fic I'm totally not writing for paradise_city (oh god, why did a choose a porny idea to start on? I think I'll probably die of embarrassment the first time someone reads it...)
On that note, I'm thinking of adding a BDSM element to the fic, can anyone here rec some good books or websites to do research? I've dabbled in it myself, but since my sex life as a whole isn't really anything to brag about, I don't want to just base things on what I've experienced or looked for myself.